Noticeably one thing I have not spoken about on this blog site were the circumstances surrounding your passing. To be quite honest, I was on auto pilot and, thankfully, focused on my love for you, my profound love for God, love for my family and the innermost will to survive.
At this point in the blog I started to remember exactly how I felt. I took myself to a place I never want to return. I started to feel sick to my stomach and mind over the events that transpired that day. Deeper and deeper I went. I refuse to go there. I refuse to littler my beautiful memories of Lorenzo with recollections of irresponsibility.
Let me guess.... at this point anyone who thinks they know anything about SIDS would tell me that "there was nothing anyone could have done" -- blah blah blah. Well, I may not wear a white coat, work in a morgue, or wear a dark uniform, but I am an expert in this thing they call SIDS nonetheless.
About Me
- Forever Lorenzo's Mother
- It has been 14 years since my son passed away while at a home daycare. Life, as one can imagine, took an incredibly challenging turn, but here I am. I rarely identify myself or those closest to me on this page, as in the beginning it served as a sort of "therapy" just for me. I am grateful to have had a place to come to when I needed to "communicate" and make sense about what the world happened to my beautiful boy, my life. I am also grateful that I could look back in this diary of sorts and now see that along with an amazing support system, absolute faith and persistence to survive has brought me to where I am today. Much love and light to those on the road of recovery - any recovery. Believe in what may seem impossible...