Blessings -

"Music Matters"

Last night we went to the Hollwood Bowl - Opening night. It was great music... TRISHA YEARWOOD, tribute to FRANK SINATRA, JOSHUA BELL, and... my favorite - JOSH GROBIN. JOSH is special because I was compelled to buy his latest CD before Renzo was born, hearing his voice was so inspiring that it would make me shiver when I heard him sing on the radio, it called to me. I thought it would be the CD I would listen to in the hospital while in labor. I never took the CD and it stayed on the shelf in plastic wrap. I did not even remember it until after Renzo passed. The day he was buried, it rained like crazy at night. That night, my husband and I cried together, again, as we had just realized that one of our turtles died - after 17 years. We figured that Renzo took the turtle to heaven with him, it was much too much to handle. When we were in the room we heard a steady noise outside, it was the first rain fo the season. It was unbelievable, it had not rained at all up until that day, it poured. One of the songs on the JOSH GROBIN CD is called REMEMBER WHEN IT RAINED. I played that song after Renzo died, it broke my heart, but I knew it was a sign. When JOSH GROBIN sang last night, tears flowed down my face, it was such a pleasure to hear his magical voice.

At Renzo's funeral, one of the songs we chose to the background his video picture presentation was OVER THE RAINBOW from the Wizard of Oz, the original by Judy Garland. I had heard that song about 3 times in the following weeks after he died, it seemed to pop up everywhere. Since when does anyone you ever hear that song consecutively? So last night, the closing song was sung by TRISHA YEARWOOD. What was it? OVER THE RAINBOW. My husband and I just whispered at one another "Oh No..." - We knew we were going to lose it. It was so beautiful, she did a good job singing it. We just sat there and cried individually, everyone must have thought it we were nuts. I buried my head in my sweatshirt, it was so very diffiuclt to hear, was unexpected, we were just trying to get out with friends for a relaxing night with good music. Since we were outdoors, and far from the stage, there were big screen TV's so all can see what is going on on stage. I popped up my head from under my sweatshirt to look at the big screen during the last verse of the song. I swear, as soon ( and I am talking about AS SOON AS) as TRISHA YEARWOOD sang the very last word of OVER THE RAINBOW, A SHOOTING STAR appeared just to the right of the big screen, it was sooo awesome, it really snapped me out of a deep sadness. I could hear people around me say "wow, a shooting star!" - The timing was impecable, it was another magical moment..


I am so glad I have eyes to see, ears to hear, and still a heart to feel - despite everything.


You raise me up so I can stand on mountains...


* publised at 12:11 on 6/25 *